“Thesis”

it’s my final semester and the university requires me to do my industrial training and thesis at the same time, in order for me to graduate on time. For me it will burden us the final semester student because we need to work and do our reports and do our thesis at the same time (I don’t know why i keep on babbling about this thing!). well whether i like it or not, i just have to bare with it!

Speaking of thesis, i did send my draft proposal for my thesis. After i did some readings and journal digging, i finally got what is good to do research on. Islamic Finance. I am sure that you’ve heard of it. Well, i decided on this topic long ago when i took Islamic finance subject (i was in my 4th sem). it is an interesting topic and there’s so many things to do research on, since the Islamic finance industry is still developing in the global world.

What is Islamic finance? It is a financial system that is similar to the conventional financial system but the Islamic financial system is based on the Islamic Law (Shariah). as a Muslim, it is my duty to be in the industry and encourage my Muslim brothers and sisters to invest and gain profit that is free from interest (riba’), uncertainty and gambling.

So, I have sent the draft through email, and the feedback is very convincing. Ahlamdulillah, she liked my idea and Insya Allah, i will continue on this topic. The new journey has just begun!

dedicated to you honey

honey, there’s no exact word to describe my feelings to you. I know that I’ve done so much that hurt your feelings but believe me, I don;t mean to do so. I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my heart and this song is dedicated to you, from Plain White-T: 1 2 3 4 I Love You.

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make it all better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even when I know I’m not
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
Barely get mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It’s as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only
ONE thing (one)
TWO do (two)
THREE words (three)
FOUR you… (four)
(I love you) I love you
There’s only
ONE way (one)
TWO say (two)
Those THREE words (three)
And that’s what I’ll do… (four)
(I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when it hurts so bad
The best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

It’s as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only
ONE thing (one)
TWO do (two)
THREE words (three)
FOUR you… (four)
(I love you) I love you
There’s only
ONE way (one)
TWO say (two)
Those THREE words (three)
And that’s what I’ll do… (four)
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you

You make it easy
It’s as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only
ONE thing
TWO do
THREE words
FOUR you…
(I love you) I love you
There’s only
ONE way
TWO say
Those THREE words
And that’s what I’ll do…
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

All Over Again

it’s been a while since i last wrote something in this blog. Why you ask?? I don’t have the answer, probably because I’m too busy with my study (oww come on that is the most common excuses I’ve heard!!so lame!! :-P). Oh well, no matter what the answer is, I’ve grown and I would like to continue sharing a piece of my common life with people around me.

this is my place, my own space to wrote anything that i want, and everything that i will write is about me, so please, if you feel like you don’t want to read, SO BE IT!

Biarlah Rahsia

once upon a time, i had difficulties in adjusting myself to fit into a new envirnment. there are time when i think that i did the right things but it turn out to be bad. i had no one to turn to, so i decided to keep everything to myself…

pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika, berada ditempat ku, membayangkan pahit manis berlalu, entah siapa yang tahu

mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan, berdepan dengan kata menyesakkan, takkan tugumu kebal, tiada pertimbangan

keheningan malam membangunkan, kepayahan jiwa meluahkan, andai kau jujur memahami, tiada ku menjauhi

dan kisah ku, yang masih panjang, menambahkan berat yang memandang, lantas ku pendam, ku putuskan, biarlah rahsia

semakin aku hidup dalam cinta, tiada kuasa untuk menghalangnya, hentikan kata-kata, bertulangkan dusta

keheningan malam membangunkan, kepayahan jiwa meluahkan, andai kau jujur memahami, tiada aku menjauhi

dan kisahku yang masih panjang, menambahkan berat yang memandang, lantas ku pendam, ku putuskan, biarlah rahsia

graduation

assalamualaikum

alhamdulillah, finally i’m graduating my diploma level with no repeat paper.i am going to miss the fun learning here in IIC. this place had change me from a little girl that know nothing, to a person who know how to do paper work more efficiently n practically. not just that this place have grown me up to be a better person. in this place also i know how to differenciate between true friends and just friends.

to all of my friends that will be graduating this weekend, i wish all of you

HAPPY GRADUATION & CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE!!

results

assalamualaikum..

result final da klua..alhamdulillah result aku naik drpd sem lepas..subject yg aku target dpt A, aku x dpt A pn..bg aku itu da rezeki aku..

dalam mase 3 minggu lg aku convo..its a feeling that i could not describe, its a mix of happy+scared+relief+exciting+worry..i hope that it would be a day that i would never forget..its like a dream come true..

in the mean time..aku cari keje..tp job demand,based on course yg aku blaja agak kurang and sume nk experience at least 1 year..aku ni mane lah penah keje..setakat jd cikgu tusen (tu pn cikgu ganti) tu penah la..hehehee..

aku da apply utk sambung degree..aku risau sgt..takut2 ape yang aku minta tu tak dapat..bukan nyer first time pun ape yang aku apply x dapat..mase lps SPM dulu pun same jugak..aku da berusaha dan skang aku hanye tawakal..

sejak duduk rumah ni rase rindu pulak kt lecturer2 kat kolej..tu la dulu mase blaja malas nk pegi klass..skarang dah duduk kat rumah baru tau pegi klass tu seronok..ye la duduk rumah pun bukan nye buat ape2..tolong mama, jaga amin, gado ngan amin, tgk tv, surf internet..ish……x tau da nak buat ape..nk klua gi jalan2 mama pulak tak bagi..i hope that i have the chance to futher my studies in degree level…

about me..

my name is khairunnisa bt amir. i was born on sunday evening, November 23, 1986. i was born as the eldest daughter in my family and the eldest grandaughter on my father’s side. my grandmother wanted a boy but it came out to be me! i have two younger sister and a younger brother.

i was brought up in kuala lumpur, until i was 8 years old. my father had a new job in subang jaya, so we moved to USJ 9, subang jaya, where it all begins..

i was the slowest among my siblings and in class. i could only learn how to read and count by my own during my standard three in primary school. i had many friends there, the best frined and also the "not best friend".

her name is naili. she’s so smart, so does her siblings. she had two sisters and a younger brother. she’s good in everything; english, mathematics, science, even she is good in reading Al-Quran. i was so jelouse of her. she moved to subang jaya when i was in standard 4. we do everything together. we ride the same bus to school, we sit together in class, we go for school activity together, we play together,almost everything we do together. she was the only person who is kind to me.

i was lable as the stupid and idoit student in school. i cant read, i’m not good in math and science. the only thing that i’m good is chating with my friend in class. because of my noisy mouth my classmate doesnt like me. i still remember, once my friend told me that she had a crush on an older boy. one day she receive a love letter from him. she’s so happy. suddenly that boy walked across in front of us. den i scream out loud ‘ wan love hana!’ by that the  whole school know about them. she was so angry at me and since that day she doesnt want to be my friend. i promise myself that i wont do that again but i keep on repeating it until no one wants to be near to me any more!

during year 1998, it was my last year in primary school, i had a crush. he’s name is azrul. he was so popular back at school. he was good in sports and academic. i really admire him but that is all i can do. that year i enter the last class in the entire school. in that year also i had been apointed to be the school librarian. i was so happy and that is also the only thing that made my mother proud of me.

i have to sit for my UPSR exam that year. and the result made my mother cry. i get 1A 3B 1C. i was proud of my self. that was the higest achivement for me at that time.

i really miss my best friend naili. i wish that i still have her phone number. i really miss my math teacher, he was the best teacher i have ever had. he was the reason i could do my math paper for that exam. thank you encik fazli…………….

bulu mata

Subject: kerana sehelai bulu mata

Diceritakan di hari pembalasan kelak,
ada seorang hamba Allah sedang>diadili.
Dia dituduh bersalah kerana
mensia-siakan hidupnya di dunia
utk>berbuat maksiat. Namun begitu dia
berkeras membantah, "Tidak demi langit
>dan>bumi,sungguh tidak benar. saya x
pernah malakukan perkara itu…"

"Tetapi saksi-saksi mengatakan engkau
betul2 telah menjerumuskan
dirimu>sendiri ke dalam dosa"

Orang itu menoleh ke kiri dan ke kanan,
lalu merenung segenap penjuru
ruangyg ada. Kemudian dia pun
menyanggah, "mana saksi2 yg engkau
maksudkan?
disini tiada sesiapa melainkan aku dan
suaramu sahaja."

Jawab malaikat, "Inilah saksi-saksimu….."

Tiba2 mata berbicara, "Saya yg memandang,"
disusuli dengan telinga, "Saya yg
mendengar perkara itu"
Hidung pun tidak ketinggalan, "Saya yg
mencium"
Bibir pun mengaku dengan slumbernye,
"Saya yg merayu"
Lidah menambah dengan beran i, "Saya
yang menjilat dan menghisap"
Tangan tanpa malu meneruskan, "Saya yang
meraba dan meramas"
Kaki pula menyusul, "Saya yg berjalan
dan berlari semasa itu">

Nah kalau dibiarkan kesemua anggota
tubuhmu akan memberikan
kesaksian>tentang perbuatan aibmu," ujar
malaikat. Orang tersebut x dapat
membuka>sanggahnya lagi. Ia berputus asa
dan amat berduka kerana sebentar lagi ia
akan dihumban ke dalam neraka jahannam..

Padahal ia amat berharap agarsegala
perbuatan jahatnya dapat diselindungi.
Tatkala dia sedang dilanda kesedihan,
tiba-tiba terdengar satu suara yg amat
lembut dari sehelai bulu mata berbunyi,
" Saya pun ingin mengangkat sumpah untuk
menjadi saksi dalam>perkara ini."
Malaikat menjawab dengan tenang,
"Silakan wahai bulu mata"

"Terus terang sahaja, menjelang ajalnya
pada satu malam yang hening, aku pernah
dibasahi dengan juraian air mata
penyesalan mengenangkan segala>perbuatan
keji yang telah dilakukan.

Bukankah rasulnya telah berjanji,apabila
ada seorang hamba yang ingin bertaubat,
walaupun sehelai bulu mata sahaja yg
dibasahi dengan air mata, demikian itu
diharamkan dirinya dari ancaman api
neraka? MAka, saya sehelai bulu mata,
berani tampil sebagai>saksi bahawa dia
telah bertaubat sampai membasahi saya
dengan air mata>penyesalan."

Dengan kesaksian bulu mata itu, orang
tersebut dibebaskan dari neraka
dan>segera dihantar ke syurga:"Lihatlah
hamba Allah ini masuk syurga kerana
pertolongan bulu mata.."

mungkir bahagia-hazami

Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini

Gerimis duka ku

Menggamit kenangan silam

Resah dan pilu menghampiri

Sunyinya malamku kelam

Pedih kemelut cinta

Dingin kelu bicara

‘Tuk mengungkap rindu

Sayangku mungkir pada kejujuranmu

Menolak segala bahgia dihadapanku

Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku

Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu

Kukesali

Dikanyut dilambung ombak lara

Sepiku berkelana

Melayari jiwa nestapa

Menggagahi rasa kesayuan

Leburlah harapan cinta

Namun kesetiaanmu

Kugenggam bagai hukuman

Mengheret langkahku

Maafkan daku

Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir

Maafkan daku

Kerna ku memungkirinya

Maafkan daku

Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini

Maafkan daku

Ku mungkir bahagia

to all of my friends

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as we go on
we’ll remember
all the times
we had together
and if our lives changes
come what ever
we will still be
friends forever…